I don't have a whole lot of regrets in my life. A few years ago that would have been a totally different statement, but someone came into my life and made me realise that I can't change the past so it's not worth worrying about. He was right and since then I have let many things go and honestly I feel the better for it.
However, lately I have been regretting something quite strongly. I can't take it back but I still wish I had done it differently. Months (and months and months) ago, I started dropping hints here about my secret project, the business I was going to start. As you all know, it is still in the works (I honestly didn't realise how long it would take me to get from idea to selling the idea).
My plans haven't changed (though they have grown) and I am still working very slowly towards my goals. But I have found that the pressure I created for myself by telling you has actually worked against me. I feel kind of stupid for telling the world my plans long before they would come to fruition. I feel that I am letting you down by not having something to show for the past year of my life. And at times I have wondered if perhaps I am all talk.
But I have decided that, while I can't change the past, I can change the future. I can stop using my precious energy worrying about what everyone thinks of me and start reminding myself of how capable I am. I set myself a challenge. I didn't realise how big of a challenge it was going to be. But I am determined not to back down - this is something I want and something I believe I can do.
I have, however, learnt my lesson - so I will no longer be telling you of things to come that aren't ready. I don't want to feel that I am not keeping my promise to you by not being able to deliver immediately. You are so important to me and I thank you so much for following my journey here.