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For the past week I have been slowly working my way through my childhood bedroom. I have to be honest, it's been incredibly difficult simply because I have a lot of stuff. I have always been a very materialistic person; I have a lot of random collections that started by having one or two things - some have gone out of control, others I grew bored of after a while. Basically, this has left me with an incredible amount of stuff to sort as I move out.
Sorting it, for me, has been very draining. Mostly because I see something and it reminds me of who I used to be, or something I loved when I was younger. My gut reaction is to hold onto it so that I will always remember. This has led me to the conclusion that I always used my stuff to define who I was. And in a way it has been a relief to realise this. Because I could hold on to everything that ever meant something to me, or I can let go of the stuff and just keep the memories, leaving me free to be who I am now. Because the truth is I don't need any of this stuff. And I don't even want much of it now.
My life has been far too cluttered in the past, as I tried to cling to whatever went by. But now I no longer need stuff to define who I am (okay, I need some stuff, but no where near as much as what I had). I am still going to collect things, but only fairies (and anything fairy related) and windchimes. This is a big step for me. I feel that this decision to rid myself of the stuff pulling me down (and pulling up dust which is not doing my throat and nose a world of good) is a large weight off my shoulders. I no longer have to worry about what I'll do with it, or where I'll keep it. I will simply keep what I want or need and the most important memories and send the rest off into the universe (read: charity shop). I see this as making space in my life for me. I will define who I am from now on, not let my stuff do it for me.
And just because I know you're dying to know what collections I will be getting rid of, here goes: 2 large boxes of Enid Blyton books; Lord of the Rings figures; china doll collection; soft toy collection and many many books. I'm sure I've missed out some (yeah, I had so many I can't even remember them all) but here's to a simpler, decluttered future.