Starting

"I write every day. Especially when I don't feel like it. Especially when it's not working. I can always choose to not use something that I wrote and that I realize later is the wrong tone, doesn't fit, contradicts other parts. I can't decide to use something that isn't written. I can't use something that is still in my head. Better to have something come out half right than have all of it perfectly in my skull."

I read this paragraph by Sean Ferrell and just had to share his words with you.  Read the beginning again.  See what he wrote?  That he writes even when he doesn't want to.  One day I hope that will be me saying that but at the moment, I write sometimes, usually when there's a deadline at uni.  But what about after uni or during the summer?  This summer I am going to try and write almost every day - it would never work if I say every day as I know that that's unattainable (what with my fabulous M.E. and everything) so I'm going to say almost every day.  Even if I write rubbish, even if all I manage is a blog post; yes, I count this as writing - it's putting one word infront of another, in an order of my choosing, to tell the world...something, it is writing.

But before I even start I am beginning to panic - where will all this motivation come from?  Will I be able to keep writing even when I don't want to, what if I'd rather watch tv or snuggle up with a good book (or my very snuggly man)?  And then I realise that these will all happen - there will be times when I don't want to write, probably times when I don't write.  But if I worry about that now, I may never start trying to write every day.  I could put it off, but that will get me no where.  Only I can motivate myself, and I want to write, I want to be a writer, so I am going to be one.  And that is how a decision is made.

P.S. This is my 100th post, I'm amazed I've mangaged to go on this long.