Today I had the chance to catch up with a friend from college. I haven't seen him in over a year (at least) so it was great so chat and talk about our lives and how they're going. He is in his first year of uni and as I listened to his escapades I couldn't help feeling a little jealous, and a little nostalgic for the life I led in my first year. Don't get me wrong, I am relatively happy with how my life is now, but as I remembered going clubbing each week, drinking alcohol and meeting lots of people it's not surprising that I found myself missing that lifestyle.
I left wondering why I was jealous of someone living like that. I'll be the first to say I did not follow any 'rules' in my first year, in particular regarding my health and lifestyle. My sleeping schedule was a tragedy, and my diet wasn't much better. In respect to that, I feel much more fulfilled now.
I have come to the conclusion that what I really miss is the socialisation I had in my first year. Back then I knew a lot of people, I made friends easily and was rarely left to face the world alone. Unfortunately, due to the fact that I'm not able to go out very often now (plus the work load increase for all of us), I am no longer in much contact with any of those friends. Sure, if we see each other in town we say hi (considering that I manage to leave the house about once a week, that isn't a normal occurance). But the only real contact we have is via facebook - a poke here, a message there. No longer do I get phone calls each week to see if I'm going out. I am alone (not completely as I have Chris, but he feels more a part of me than anything). All my socialising is now done online. I have made friends online and I am thankful for each and every one of them - but it is not the same as seeing someone face to face over coffee and having a good old natter.