Saying Everything

Today I am taking it slowly; allowing my body to follow its own rhythms.  Choosing to have nothing to do is an idea I found at Sustainably Creative.  It's more than simply deciding to have a day to relax, but a day completely filled with nothing.  I have found it to be rewarding, and am thinking I am going to have to have one at least once a week (maybe even twice), as I am certain that this is a way for me to avoid burn out.

Burn out is something I worry about a lot.  Mainly I fear that if I overdo it, I will 'crash', my M.E. will flare and I will be struggling more than I already am.  As I'm starting to feel that perhaps things might be taking a turn for the better, obviously this is something I want to avoid.

I also fear the kind of burn out which involves losing motivation.  For the past few weeks, my motivation has also taken a turn for the better.  I am writing again.  I am catching up on everything I left by the roadside 2 years ago when my M.E. decided it had had enough of playing alongside the rest of my life.  For the first time in a long time I feel happy, and I'm certain that that is the reason my ideas and motivation seem to have shot through the roof.

This post was going to be about relaxing and taking my time and enjoying the simple things.  It seems to have got away from me once again.  Because that is what happens when we allow ourselves the space to do and be anything - we find out what it is that we want; we work out how we got where we are.

So I'm going to leave it here, with saying nothing, yet knowing I have said everything.