Love. Hope. Joy. Peace

These are the words that have been knocking about my brain for the past few days.  And I am beginning to realise that these might possibly be the most important words in the English language (alongside Trust).

Love.  Hope.  Joy.  Peace.

When I shift my focus to soaking in these words and allowing their abundance to be felt deep inside of me, I become more than me I am a golden shimmering version of me – the me I am supposed to be.

Love.  Hope.  Joy.  Peace.

When I entrench every part of my life in these words, life becomes more magical than I could ever have imagined.  It is still hard and painful and difficult.  But it is also easy and safe and beautiful.  I am lifted out of the everyday monotony of dealing with my disability and exist as I was meant to, my essence shining through.

Love.  Hope.  Joy.  Peace.

And I know that my future will be amazing.  And that I will achieve what I am meant to achieve.  And that I can share these beautiful feelings with the world.  There will never be a shortage of them and so I want to let them flow out of me and into every person I meet, every person whose words I read, every person who I know needs to feel them, every person in the universe.

I have Love, Hope, Joy and Peace.

I feel Love, Hope, Joy and Peace.

I give Love, Hope, Joy and Peace.

I am Love, Hope, Joy and Peace.

My Week In Pictures

I still don't have the words to write, despite feeling like I want to start writing again, but I do have the pictures.

 1.Green Smoothie 2. Banana and coconut ice pops 3-6. Local carnival 7. Noah's arc cross-stitch I'm working on for SOLAK 8. The Olympic Torch (at 6.30am this morning!)

Blogging in my Future

Not a day goes past without me thinking about blogging.  I have been blogging now for a few years and I still love it - in fact, I would say I love it more now than I ever have before.

So why haven't I been posting recently?  Because I don't have the words.  Or the pictures. 

Everyday I think about writing here and almost everyday I struggle to find anything I want to say.  Right now in my life I am in a very introspective place.  I am spending time with my crafts and my thoughts and my feelings.  I am allowing silence to fill me so I may know the direction I am going and if it's where I want to be.  I want to share all of this here, but I feel that sharing too soon will cause a rift.  And so I sit alone, behind my screen, in front of a book, with a pen and paper.  I sit and try to be.  I sit and try to find out anything about myself that can help me.

I want to let you know that I am not abandoning my blogging or projects or ideas.  But I am at living in a state that needs to not have every detail and thought shared with the world.  I don't know when I will be ready to share, if ever.  But I do know that blogging will be a part of my future, as much as it is a part of my present.  Basically - I will return!  I know it can be frustrating for bloggers to post erratically, but that is what I need to do right now.  If you find it difficult to cope with knowing that posts may be a bit here, there and everywhere from me for a while, go and find someone you can depend on to follow.  If not, I hope you will enjoy the odd post that makes it to your screen from me.