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Monday, 2 July 2012

Blogging in my Future

Not a day goes past without me thinking about blogging.  I have been blogging now for a few years and I still love it - in fact, I would say I love it more now than I ever have before.

So why haven't I been posting recently?  Because I don't have the words.  Or the pictures. 

Everyday I think about writing here and almost everyday I struggle to find anything I want to say.  Right now in my life I am in a very introspective place.  I am spending time with my crafts and my thoughts and my feelings.  I am allowing silence to fill me so I may know the direction I am going and if it's where I want to be.  I want to share all of this here, but I feel that sharing too soon will cause a rift.  And so I sit alone, behind my screen, in front of a book, with a pen and paper.  I sit and try to be.  I sit and try to find out anything about myself that can help me.

I want to let you know that I am not abandoning my blogging or projects or ideas.  But I am at living in a state that needs to not have every detail and thought shared with the world.  I don't know when I will be ready to share, if ever.  But I do know that blogging will be a part of my future, as much as it is a part of my present.  Basically - I will return!  I know it can be frustrating for bloggers to post erratically, but that is what I need to do right now.  If you find it difficult to cope with knowing that posts may be a bit here, there and everywhere from me for a while, go and find someone you can depend on to follow.  If not, I hope you will enjoy the odd post that makes it to your screen from me.

5 comments:

Chelle said...

Maybe you need to set up a crafting blog. I set up a separate blog for my needlecrafts and I am posting there daily on my various projects. I am hardly ever posting on my original blog and am thinking of taking it down, but can't decide.

I also don't have the words right now. Not sure why - maybe I ran out?

Hugs always,
Chelle

Miss Chronically Creative said...

All bloggers go through this hun. And blogging with and about chronic illness does take its toll every now and then. I've taken some time off blogging before to assess where I'm going and what I should write about and it has been most beneficial and I hope this time away from blogging does the same for you too. That baking giveaway stuff I got from a few different places, but if you email me your shipping details, I'll be happy to send a smilar bunch out to you- I'll contact you later this week though about it. I'm sending a whole bunch of fun creative goodies out to a few people as part of Random Acts of Blogging Kindness on the blog and I'd love for you to be one of them!

Kess said...

I agree with the above comments. I think it's a phase all bloggers go through, and on more than one occasion. I've just been through one that lasted four months, and thought I wasn't even going to return, though I missed blogging too much. I know you will be back before too long, and when you do you'll feel refreshed and ready to blog, complete with new ideas x

KipperCat said...

Enjoy your time of reflection and learning about yourself. It's not always an easy process, but so worth it. Our life with M.E. makes it even more important that we know ourselves as well as possible. We don't have the luxury of wasting energy in spinning our wheels. I wish I'd realized the importance of self-knowledge years earlier.

Tamara Epps said...

Thank you so much for your comments, I am overwhelmed with gratitude for each and every one

Chelle - I love both of your blogs so would be sad to see your non-stitching blog go but you must do what is right for you. I considered setting up a separate blog for my crafts but instead have decided to post pictures on Flickr instead (I am still in the process so there's not much to see yet), find me at http://www.flickr.com/people/tamara_epps/

Emily - thank you for your words of support and you will be getting an email from me very soon.

Kess - I'm glad to know I'm not the only one feeling like this and look forward to reading your blog again whenever you return.

KipperCat - self-knowledge is incredibly important and possibly even more so when managing chronic conditions and it's good to know I'm not the only one who understands that.