Since my last post I haven't really known what to write here. What I do know is that the longer I go without posting, the less I want to - so I'm deciding to post now before I reach a time where I feel completely unable to.
Yesterday was a good day. I was productive and I felt positive in general. Unfortunately the feeling hasn't followed through to today although I was just as productive.
I am, however, feeling less overwhelmed with life. For the first time in a long time I have started feeling every now and again that I am capable of getting through this, that the world isn't going to end around me. This is a huge step for me as it is allowing me to focus on just one thing at a time rather than feeling the weight of everything that needs to get done. I am choosing to simply focus on getting through each day and organising my Christmas list (I feel so far behind in this but at least I am moving forward now). Everything else has been put on hold - I still have those plans and ideas but I am ignoring them for now as if I think about them everything engulfs me until I cannot find myself.
I hope you've had a good week.
4 comments:
I know how you feel. I feel like that some days where it seems like I have to work so hard to fall so far short. I know this comment doesn't help, but chronic illness can be a lonely place. Just wanted you to know you're not alone.
Bless you. I'm glad you are taking control and feeling more empowered and calm. I know how it feels to be stressed and overwhelmed by things.
Just wanted you to let you know I'm thinking about you. Be easy with yourself --
Thank you all for your support - it's greatly appreciated. To be honest I think the depression is more to do with being stuck inside and unable to do anything (leading to thoughts that I am useless) more than anything else.
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