As you've probably noticed, I've changed my blog. Again. (If you haven't noticed then I appreciate that you are drawn straight to my words but really, not noticing is not a good sign or appreciating life in general.)
After writing yesterday's post, I really wanted to change my blog design to reflect me as last time I simply settled for a design that was alright, but not quite right. Turns out there was a reason I settled. Finding the right background, something that truly reflects me, is bloody difficult. No, seriously, it took me over two hours to find this background (which, by the way, I found here).
The problem was, I didn't really know what I wanted it to reflect. Sure, I enjoy crafts so that was the first thing I looked for. But just because I enjoy it doesn't mean it can reflect me. There was also an awesome food/cooking background but as this is blog is not about cooking it didn't feel right - in the same way that this blog isn't about crafts. There may be elements of crafts and cooking in this blog, but that's not what it's about. It's about me. And I am not crafts or cooking. I'm not entirely sure who I am/what I want which turned out to be the problem.
In the end I went for something that made me feel how I want to come across. Yes, it is a ploy for you to see me in a certain light, but that is true of everything we do online. This background, to me, suggests serenity and beauty, something natural yet made by humans. And I guess that's who I want to be. I want to be serene in my outlook. I want my words to be beautiful. I want to show that I am part of nature, and yet a product of others (society, upbringing, etc). I don't know if this is what I am. It's just what I want to project. Therefore, it made sense to me to use my blog as a place to show this and hope that in projecting it, I will become it (after all, I'm a true believer that if you wear a mask, sooner or later it stops being a mask).
I am curious though as to how you, my reader, see me. Are you nodding your head in agreement with the above paragraph? Or do you think I'm wrong about myself? Seriously, I want to know.