It's typical that the moment I resign myself to not blogging much, I find myself with lots of news and plenty of post ideas crammed into my head, begging for release.
As you know, I haven't been really feeling like myself recently. I haven't found myself interested or motivated to do much at all. It's amazing how quickly that can change. Yesterday morning I was woken by a phone call. A phone call inviting me to an interview! I have only applied for a few jobs as I've been struggling to get up in the morning, but this one I really wanted to apply for. It is 12hrs a week which I'm certain I can manage. It's temporary so I figure it'll give me some time to worry about getting a 'real job'. I am don't have any of the qualifications they ask for. But I know I can do this job. And it seems that they think I might be able to as well. I wasn't expecting a reply. I wasn't expecting any response at all. But I got one.
I had been feeling like a failure. I had applied for an online freelance article writing job and been turned down. To say I was at my lowest would be exaggerating. To say I was at my best would be an outright lie. I had given up having faith in myself. Getting this interview brought it all back. I know I still have a way to. I know I might not get the job, but for now, knowing I got an interview is enough. It reminded me that I am capable. I am strong. And I can survive in this world, even with M.E. So now I am determined to fight my way out of depression. I am taking it extra slow, just a day at a time, focusing on one thought or idea a day as the last thing I want is to burn out and force myself back down. For the first time in a while I feel able, and that is saying a lot.