This post was inspired by looking at artwork on Pinterest, which is something I've only recently come across as usually I waste my time looking for craft ideas and recipes that I rarely manage to actually make. It is unedited and the word vomit of how most of my ideas come to me.
The world is filled with incredible imagination. Often I go looking for inspiration, and spend the next few days filled with wonder and amazement at all that I have found. Unfortunately this also has the effect of me not doing any work of my own. Usually I am hopeful to add my own creativity to the world, but then procrastinate instead of doing. And other times I simply feel that I have nothing to add. What more could possibly be needed? I know that is a double-edged question and no answer will ever suffice.
The thing for me is that I believe in my ability to create amazing work. But I don’t believe in my imagination to give me the fuel to create said amazing work. I want to join the ranks of journaling and writing and all those things I find so inspiring; I even know how to. I just find that I never do.
I know I need to stop worrying about it, and simply start doing. It doesn’t matter how awful my first attempts at art are – no one has to see them after all. And yet I find I can never start. And so I procrastinate and look at the wonders of others, never contributing anything myself.
But occasionally, every now and then, I start to write about it and that is enough for now. I am writing something and the more I write, the more I continue to write. I might not be able to add anything visual just yet, but words can be just as powerful, oftentimes much more powerful. And so I will stop worrying about my inability to add my art to the world, and focus on the art I know I can do, the art that comes naturally to me. I will write. (Hopefully much better articulated sentences, paragraphs and stories.)